There was a time when one looked at such activities like prostitution as horrific and lower than imaginable.  Certainly these topics were issued in society but not personally relevant.  It may not have been long ago, but they are far far out of mind. That is why I say there is no such thing as hitting bottom and realizing this is the very end for me and I must make a change. People are not motivated by how bad things could potentially get even how bad things are. People are motivated by the same thing that motivates addiction. Covering, wanting. We begin to recover when we realize that as long as we are still breathing, things can get better. Unless we have faith that things can get better then we will accept any sort of badness as our just do if we even evaluate the situation at all, but if we see something we want someone who has something we want, and we have the belief that we could require that something whether it be an actual physical possession or status we can begin to contemplate and
this is why jealousy is so important we are people who reflect the people around us. If we are around people who are just let us say gambling, we’re using drugs. It’s no big deal because he’s actions become normalized. There’s no shame. There’s no desire to do something different. It’s OK. I’m not advocating shame as a way of life, but shame has its place. Just a little bit. Just a modicum of shame can do wonders for a person who perhaps gets around people his or her her own age. And these people have not taken time away from their professional lives to pursue addiction. These people who were peers are now far far ahead economically, experientially, in always, they have families, whereas the people with addictions have people who will not speak to them anymore. They have money, and that is money invested and money in the bank and money that can’t be seen. The person with the addiction
has money in so far is whatever is in their pockets if there is anything and whatever is on their person. If they’re not holding it, they don’t have it. There is nothing put away For a rainy day or a sunny day. People with addictions have no work experience or very little or huge gaps in there employment history gaps that are impossible to explain to normal people who have no familiarity with addiction. People cannot understand where you were for five years, but those appears they don’t have those gaps. They don’t have those empty pockets. They don’t have those voids where loved ones belong. The person with the addiction is in position to see these people whether they want to or not for example, if they are taken even against they will to a recovery meeting, in a detox program, they could see that they were trying to see, but they can be affected by these people nonetheless feeling
when they see those who would’ve been peers is in that shame. The person with the addiction doesn’t want others to know where they are at what they have become. They deliberately avoid reunions. They do not keep in touch on Facebook. They do not go to their hometown. And they certainly don’t tell people the truth, because although a bit of shame within oneself might be useful, having shame thrown in a person is so damaging and so hurtful perhaps internal shame is the wrong word perhaps the right word is conscience or conviction if a person can take that conviction that feeling of I wish I had done better and move it along to I could do better. There is hope that conviction combined with some motivating jealousy can make all of the difference. The most important thing to do in recovery is to be around people who are always doing better than oneself. It said that you are the smartest
person in the room, you are in the wrong room. in terms of diction you were in the wrong room because you don’t want to be the person doing the best in the room because attics are notoriously self-centered and grandiose and they will feel that they have arrived. Everyone else around them is lower than them. A person with an addiction keep moving upward they have to, the prize and keep their eyes on that prize and keep the belief that even though they are seeing the prize and the prize because it was so far out of before they should keep the pain because they too, can make it even if they have to start a job held by high school students while they are middle-aged. They could have what they’ve always wanted. They just have to keep in mind that they have always wanted it and not push that desire and jealousy.