A surprise about the book I am Reading

A famous author is reported to have said something like, if there is a book you want to read that has not been written, you must write it.  With this advice in mind, I began writing, and therefore, obviously, reading, is the book I wrote about finding my birth Mother.  Many adopted children end up mired in addiction and I personally believe rejection is at the root of their addiction. Here is an example of an issue I want to address.:Adoption stories were kept secret in the past and I believe one reason is that they are often full of facts that obscure the truth. For example. It is a fact that adopted children are sometimes unwanted. But it is untrue that we are un loveable. A child who reminds a mother of her rapist does not deserve any guilt or shame but how to tell the facts while convincing a child of a deeper truth. For me, the half black baby if a white mother, I was unwanted by the white side of my birth family. This rejection is rooted in history more powerful than any individual. And it took me a long time not to hate the would-be adoptive parents who immediately changed their minds at the first sight of me. How easy it was for me to say they should have invited hatred and shame and problems during the 1970’s. If I could’ve lived without ever being the object of unearned hatred, could I have invited racism. I think the solution may be really empathizing with the people who maybe could have kept a baby but felt they couldn’t. Previously people dealt with the fact that an adopted child comes from some sort of difficult situation by lying to the child and pretending there’s been no adoption. Is it always best to know the truth simply bc it is true. Will a kinder fairy tale always crumble?