He acts like he is hip and accepting, but listen carefully
He calls an old associate he used to see during the downtown days, years ago. He, evidently, cannot get her out of his mind. He resents her uninvited mental presence, that much is clear. Why else would he be so mean to someone he professes to miss. He does not want to miss her. He does not want to want her. He “knows” he is better than her, and it drives him crazy that she should have such a hold over his thinking. He tries to convince and reconvince himself that she is nothing, by saying so out loud. To her. Interestingly, he does the very common practice of attempting to get the person he is insulting to agree with him that she is worthless. It is not enough for him to profess it. It’s almost as if she must endorse how he thinks and feels, and there’s that frustrating paradox again! This inferior being matters to him on so many levels because he does not just want her time, and her attention. He wants her mindset. Yet she does not give in. She maintains her independence from the man who wants to be with her, on his terms, as long as no one knows–that’s for sure. By the way, he does not mind if this much younger woman is seen with him. He considers her very good-looking and she makes him look good while she is at it. You may not sense his pride in how her appearance reflects upon him, or so he thinks, from the voicemail below, but it is being shared with you to give you a bit of relationship context. What is this so-called “relationship”? Listen to the voicemail and weigh in yourself in the comments. Please remember to press “like,” and become a follower! The author is forever grateful that you are spending your minutes with her because none of us has forever. Your time is more than a gift. It is an honor.
Voicemail–he wants her time, she wants his money. They haven’t seen each other for a while. Here’s how he tries to woo her:
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I am back and I have a new project
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Use this calendar to access posts in Chronological Order About Red Light Hawaii, now known as Hawaii Street Life
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Introduction to Hawaii Street Life w/ links to 200+ scintillating posts!
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Purpose of Hawaii Street Life w/ EVERY sexy, funny intimate post ever written—right here!
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Anniversary of my beloved’s death
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List of reasons why addicts steal. I confess, the last one is mine. definition of theft as taking someone’s money or property from that particular someone , either openly or sneakily , with no intention of ever returning it. This includes traditional theft, as well as borrowing without any intention of repaying, and/or scams , frauds, etc. Here is a list of why addicts say it is OK for them to steal. 1. I have helped that person out, and she owes me. 2. I have helped that person out and she owes me more than this. 3. I taught that person a valuable lesson about not trusting people. That person would have lost a lot more than this if someone else had taught him the lesson. (This reason kind of falls under the category of they owe me.). 4. The certain item is not very good quality, or it is old technology, or it is shabby and dirty. (You get the idea) 5. I am having a hard time. 6. I am having a hard time and that person ought to want to help me. 7. I am having a hard time and that person would want to help me if that person knew about it. 8. that person would want me to have this item or money. 9. He would do the same thing to me if he had the chance. 10. He did the same thing to me when he had the chance. 11. He did worse to me. 12. She is flaunting her abundance of items when she knows that I do not have even one item, and the person knows that I want or need the item. 13. That person is lucky I don’t take more than this or that i don’t have other people take more than this. 14. He no longer deserves to be repaid because of some offense towards me or towards someone else. 15. The circumstances under which I made the commitment to repay have changed. 16. It’s not for drugs. 17. He shared with someone else and not me. 18. She doesn’t use it and won’t miss it. 19. I only steal from stores not people. 20. The person only loses the first $50. The bank covers the rest. 21. At least I’m not hitting little old ladies over the head and taking their purses. 22. It is not my fault that I need it. 23. It is not stealing if it is for something important. 24. I used to be a lot worse. 25. I had a bad childhood. 26. I really feel bad about taking it. 27. This next one is not popular but I find it amusing. By stealing from someone I am helping him repay a karmic debt because in some lifetime the person must have stolen from another. 28. I know what rules to follow. I do not need society to govern my behavior the way some people do. 29. I want to show that person that we are not as cool as the person thought we were. 30. That’s what she gets for making an unwanted and disgusting sexual advance. 31. This is the first or last or only time I do this. 32. Had I asked the answer would have been “no.” 33. Because he hit me in the past, I am going to tax him by stealing from him every chance I get until one of us is dead. It’s like a weird form of marriage.
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Am I a bigot because intimacy between men makes me uncomfortable?
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